five months! i've been living together with my new kitty for nearly half a year already! i can't believe so much time has passed. i've attempted this post several times, but could never fully commit.
i was so touched by the comments i recieved in the guestbook, but equally frightened by them. i had assumed most of my page views were bot traffic, but now i must confront the fact that real humans might be reading these words. but wasn't that the point of publishing them here? after realizing the obvious i felt like my updates needed to be meaningful in some way.
to be clear, i don't blame the commentors for my absence! i truly appreciate them. i was moreso busy with new responsibilities, as well as captured by different activities.
i find my passions mercurial, unable to settle in one place for too long. it can be frustrating at times, what was once my whole world overnight becoming burdensome. but i think it's just who i am. someday these tiny steps will lead someplace, or perhaps they already have. as long as i keep taking them i think i'll be alright. to live is to change; to stagnate, to die. that said, it would be nice if my passions could persist long enough such that i might actually get something done!
but what is it that i want to do, anyways? maybe this capricious nature is a consequence of having not yet decided.